Hulse, Frederick, a 55 year resident of Torrance (Los Angeles), California, passed away on Thursday, September 10, 2009 at Gardena Memorial Hospital. He was surrounded by his family at the time of passing. Fred was born on September 6, 1938 in Trona, California. Eventually moving into the Los Angeles area where he resided and graduated from George Washington High School in June 1956. He joined the Navy, November 16, 1956 and was HONORABLY discharged August 16, 1959. He received a Good Conduct Medal (First Award) August 16, 1959. Fred is survived by his wife, Carol Ann Hulse, of 52 years. They met in junior high school, continued on as friends into high school and became high school sweethearts… celebrating their 52nd Anniversary on October 5, 2008. He is also survived by his children; sons, Mark Hulse of Torrance and Steve Hulse of Gardena and daughter Michelle Willemse of Redondo Beach and future son-in-law, Tom Grogan of Redondo Beach. Grandchildren; Tiffany Hulse, Heather Hulse, Christopher Willemse, Cory Willemse, Shelby Hulse and Valerie Steele. Great-grandson, Derrick Costello; brother, Charles Hulse and sister-in-law, Jeanne Hulse of Lake Forest. Nephews and families; Craig and Jan Hulse and daughters and Bradley and Carol Hulse and daughter, and Rick Moody and Tom Moody He is preceded in death by his parents, James Garret Hulse and Deba Hulse and his grand-daughter Jennifer Hulse. Fred worked in a machine shop founded by Craven Moody, his future-father-in-law, in 1954. He was a part-timer due to his Navy detail until 1959, when he went to work full-time for Moody Machine. In 1976, Fred purchased Moody Machine and it is currently family owned and operated. In retirement, Fred and Carol enjoyed travelling around the United States with their friends. Their motor home was their home away from home. He loved to camp, fish, and golf, as well as, ride his bicycle, take walks, go to the beach and spend time with his friends and family. Whenever they were not travelling, Fred enjoyed puttering around the house, watering the grass, spending time with his family, having barbecues, playing pool with all his kids, grandkids and great-grandchild and just enjoying life. Oh, and there was always the 'honey do list' to take care of. Everywhere Fred went, he made friends. He was an amazing person and touched the heart of everyone he met. He never had a bad word to say about anyone, he loved life and everyone in his life. Fred was a hero to his family and we are all so proud to have had him in our lives as husband, father, grandfather, great-grandfather, brother, uncle and friend. We will miss him every day for the rest of our lives….but we are grateful for the wonderful memories we will always have and will always make us smile. In lieu of flowers, the family requests to make donations to the American Cancer Society. Maybe someday we can beat this horrible disease. Please use this website, to send the family messages, share memories and obtain information and directions to the services.

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  1. Carol I am so sorry about your loss Fred will be missed so much, You are a strong woman and are loved by so many people. Derick loves you so much and he will keep you going. I have always thought so much of you and Fred since we were kids, and i will miss him dearly. Love Kathy

  2. Carol We were so sorry to hear about Fred. He was one person we could always count on for help. The two of you were a great team. Fred will be missed by a host of people. Our condolences to you and your family. Put your hands in the hands of the Lord and let him help heal you and get you through these times.

  3. Carol, Mark, Michelle & Steve I wanted to thank you for allowing me to be there with all of you and Tiffany and Heather. But most of all allowing me to be there with Fred and being able to tell him how much I loved him and what an amazing man and grandfather he is. You all have been such a big part of my life and always will be. Carol, I admire the love that you and Fred shared. It doesn’t seem that too many people share that kind of love the way you two did. I love you all and my prayers are with all of you. Marcia

  4. Dear Carol, Our heart is with you on this sad day,but rest assured Fred is now free of all the pain and suffering,and has gone to a much better place.Be strong as we know you will be.Jody and I have been thinking of you since we heard fred was ill.remember Carol, God loves us all and does whats best for all of us.

  5. Carol, Mark, Steve, Sis and extended Hulse family- Jim and I are so very sorry to know that the leader of the Hulse clan- and someone we so greatly admired, is gone. That being said, we are so grateful to have been a part of the Hulse family legacy. You were the first group, we ever camped. Now, we can’t imagine not camping with our kids. You made it so much fun. You will never know how greatly, Carol- that you and Fred impacted our marriage. Your role as a couple and the example you set, gave us hope. We had the pleasure of knowing two couples, who were married “for the long haul”(the other being Jim’s parents, married till his Dad, passed after 48 years). You made us believe, you made it look “effortless”. We know after our 27 years of marriage, how much it takes to make it work. Thank-you, for the bar you set. Whether we have laughed or cried together over the years, as you have with so many other families- you made us feel like when we are with you, that’s where we belong. Mark, Steve and Sis- it’s the same with you. You have shared your family with us all, so graciously. We love you and your beautiful family so much. Hold on to every precious memory. We will. Our prayers and love are with you, every day. Jim, Judee & the Family

  6. Fred was such a great guy. Always ready to lend a hand if you had a problem. We will miss his ready smile and great personality. We never traveled to a place he had not been. Always knew where we were going and how to get there.

  7. Fred and I had some of the best times getting lost….Lots of kidding, lots of laughs, lots of great times. I, the Marine, he the swabby with the jokes about each other. I considered him one of my best friends and someone I could go to for anything. I regret I didn’t know Fred many years before I did, but I celebrate the fact that we had almost ten good years of motorhoming with him and Carol. Nancy and I will always cherish our friendship with Fred and Carol.Semper Fi and Godspeed, Fred.

  8. I shall always see Fred hanging off the ladder in Chula Vista as he applied the rain gutter to our new coach…a few quiet cuss words, and lots of loud laughter! He always just seemed to know when we needed help. We only had 5 short years of travel with Carol and Fred, but Oh how memorable they were. We shall always think of Fred and smile. And we will miss him terribly.

  9. I shall always see Fred hanging off the ladder in Chula Vista as he applied the rain gutter to our new coach…a few quiet cuss words, and lots of loud laughter! He always just seemed to know when we needed help. We only had 5 short years of travel with Carol and Fred, but Oh how memorable they were. We shall always think of Fred and smile. And we will miss him terribly.

  10. Carol and family, We have such fond memories of the times we all spent together camping, parties, bowling and just plain visiting with such wonderful friends. Fred will be dearly missed by all. Our Deepest sympathies to all of you.

  11. I only have fond memories of my Uncle Fred. He always has a smile on his face. He will be missed, not forgotten and lived through the eyes of his and family and friends.

  12. Hi:Fred it’s me smiley. Your the only one that could get a smile out of me just by asking. I am going to miss you lots. No one here can take your place, but we know you are in a better one now.

  13. Grandpa, we miss you sooooo much. I am so sad that you are gone. It still just doesnt seem real. But I know that you are ok and there with Jen. We love you more than you will ever know and so proud to call you my Grandpa. I am so glad Derrick had 5 years with you. You were such a great grandpa and papa fred. And we are all taking care of Gma for you. We Love You and will never forget you!

  14. I have considered Fred to be one of my very best friends ever since we met him 8 years ago. Fred was always there when you needed him; always with a smile, willing to do anything. The best times were just sitting, talking and having a Coors, or going for a walk, or playing golf. To say the least he will be remembered and missed.

  15. Carol and family, You have our love for you and Fred and your family. Our friendship has been such a pleasure, you two always were there to lend a hand when needed. We will sorely miss Fred, he was such a great guy.

  16. Dear Carol, Mark, Cis, Steve and family When Chuck and I think of Fred, several words come to mind that describe him in our hearts: gentle, kind, loving, and happy. Fred loved his family, and everyone else’s family, too. He loved us and our kids as if they were his own. He was slow to anger, kind to everyone he met, loved life, and always had a smile on his face. He loved to tease and “do” for others. His relationship with you, Carol, and the entire family was an inspiration to all who knew him. We cherish our time with him and know that he is well loved in Heaven with our Lord. All our love,

  17. Mark and Family” The thoughts and prayers of the Purple Gang Kids are with you all. May your Dad rest in peace and may you all remember him with pride.

  18. Hey gramps hope you are holding up ok out there. I know you were worried about grandma and mom but no worries, you showed us all how to take care of our family. You took life on like the champion you are and weren’t afraid of anything except bees, and even then you got the nests out no matter how many times you got stung. I know I call you grandpa but you fill a hole in my life that was much larger than any grandpa could. Thank you for everything that you have provided us with in love, memories and life. Don’t work too hard out there, crack a cold coors and enjoy watching your family grow and prosper. Love you lots…your oldest grandson

  19. The words, “Fred & Carol” always meant a good time. Working, playing, eating and camping with you two has instilled memories of love as friends forever.This is just a temporary separation. I love you both so much.

  20. Dear Carol and Family Please accept our deepest sympathy in your time of loss. Fred was one of the nicest warmest people we have ever known. He always greeted us like long lost friends or relatives even though I kidded him about beautiful downtown Trona. My last memory was of a brief conversation over a beer at the small bar at the South East corner of the Riverside Casino in Laughlin NV. Its a good memory. HE is missed by so very many of us. Don and Dona Smith

  21. To the entire Hulse family Im so sorry for your loss, you are all such a strong family and I know all the wonderful memories you all have with grandpa Hulse will get you all through this hard time.You will be in my prayers and remember to celebrate his wonderful life and the memories you all share.

  22. Grandpa…. after today you’d think I would have words to say right now, but Im having trouble. So I will just say this; You were the greatest grandfather in the world and I was so lucky to know you. I love you so much, and dont worry… were taking care of grandma.

  23. Hi Fred you sure had a Great sevice on saturday the 19,You would have been so proud of all of the people that showed up. and all of the LOVE that was shown there. And you realy would have been proud of your Grandson Chris for he was the rock for everyone there. I know that i wasn’t blood to you but you sure made my family and i feel like we were.I LOVE YOU Fred and always will.Thank You for everything. PS Say hi to Jen Jen for all of us.

  24. Grandpa, I miss you so much already… I am really proud of Grandma for trying her hardest to make the best of things. You and Grandma were what kept our family a family and it’s really going to be hard to get on with life knowing that you won’t be there but I know you will be watching down on us. You are the best grandpa I could have ever asked for and it makes me sad that my kids will not get a chance to meet Papa Fred. But I will make sure they know what an amazing person you were. Thank you for taking care of Grandma as well as you did. We will take it from here and make sure she is ok. I love you Grandpa!!!

  25. Hey Fred Man (aka…Ol’Fart) Missing you alot down here… It is so different from when you are out with the motorhome w/ The Mama. Traveling and being gone for weeks/months on-end…because I know you will not be coming back home to sit in your favorite chair with your ‘Coors Light’ readily available at all times. The day that I found out that you were diagnosed was the worst day e-v-e-r…So I thought. But when you drifted away on that sunny Thursday afternoon, I knew what a broken heart truely must feel like. I miss you so terribly. When I think about the Family funtions that you will not be there for, it just makes my heart hurt! Your infectous smile, your laugh. Know that we WILL stay strong during your absence. (Mama) Carol, Mark, Cis, Steve & All the Kids will NOT be alone and we will All work together to make sure they get through this as times goes by. I will miss you forever~ Thank you for sharing your “Wonderful Family with mine.” I was and still am Proud to call you, Family~

  26. Hi Dad, Just wanted you to know that Michelle(Cis)and I are getting married at 12:01am on News Years Day in Laughlin. No need to RSVP as I know you will be there in all of us. Mom has agreed to allow me to wear your wedding ring. I will wear it with pride and honor. I really miss you Dad. You made me a better man. Tom

  27. Dear Carol, Michelle, Tom, Mark and Steve and the rest of the wonderful Hulse family and extended family………We are so sorry for your loss and we relish the fond memories we share of our times with Fred and you. You are in our prayers always……….we love you……Eunice and Chuck

  28. To my Grandpa, What to say. I want to thank you for all the great memories that we have together. Sometimes I feel those keep me going throughout the day. I’m doing my best to keep the tidal wave going yet ill never make it as good. My theory is add more booze but grandma doesnt enjoy that too much. I will forever love you and as you have seen you dont need to worry about grandma because you two raised a great family and were taking good care of her. I know youre taking care of my brandy cause she is dearly missed but happy to with you, especially cause youll take her for long walks. I can go on and on about you and the great person you are. I just want to say one last thing. I am so happy I am able to call you GRANDPA. Love You Forever

  29. Hi Dad, God, it’s been a month and I miss you so much. This has been the worse 2 months of my life (August 10-October 10). I wonder if you knew how much you would be missed. I cry at everything and I cry at nothing. Cory & I had a few beers yesterday, he had to interview me for a school project…when we were done, we talked about you, mom and my wedding. It was all both of us could do not to cry. We miss you so much. The first thought of my day, is that you’re gone and the last thought of my night, is that you’re gone. I just read some of the things people wrote…I didn’t realize they were still writing, but maybe it makes them feel better to do this…and your grandsons..they miss you more then I knew (I just read it). But I know now and I will make sure they are ok. I’m so proud of them and I thank you and mom for teaching me to be a great parent. To be continued….

  30. continued…. I never thought planning my wedding would be so hard. There’s been no joy in it (or anything I do). Knowing you won’t be there (in body) is so hard to understand. Oh, you’ll be there, I know, in spirit and memory, but it’s not the same. I’m so honored that Tom will be wearing your wedding ring. Mom’s happy about it too. I bought my dress….and you would definitely approve(: I know, with time, things will get better, for now, I have to grieve (and I haven’t) and I know you’d be pissed at me for being this way, but it’s your fault….as mom said, “wouldn’t it have been easier if he was an #J@#$!@@#$!” Yes, it would have, but you weren’t, so you just need to help me get through this. to be continued…. (sorry, I have to much to say)

  31. continued, again…. Mom’s awesome, God bless her. I know it must be so hard for her, not having you there, but I think she is so brave and doing what is the best thing she could do…keeping your (and her) dreams going. Doing what you both enjoyed doing, with your friends, for so many years….camping & traveling. Stay with her dad(: Drop me a penny from heaven, I need to know you’re here. I miss you so much and I love you with all my heart.

  32. PS The wedding time is 2pm on January 1. Didn’t want to get married in 09, just a horrible year…so we’ll start off 2010 with a happy note. The boys, and you, will give me away, so don’t be late(:

  33. Hello to The Fred Man~ …I originally was going on here to see how many more kind things were being said about you Fred, of coarse when I read them I teared up…again! I just miss you so much…We all do. Reading all of the special things that your family & friends have to say is tugging at my Heartstrings right now. You were such a wonderful & kind person. I will go for now…just wanted to tell you “I love you”~

  34. Hey old man is that beer cold enough? it’s been over a month now and it’s time for me to write something. We all really miss you even when you want to chew me out. We are all still having our rough times, I can really tell by the notes in here. Mom is doing okay but she really misses you. You knew all the tricks to fix everything so we are trying to learn. You would be very proud of the grandkids, they have been amazing with helping mom and everything. They have truly shown their love for you and mom. TRULY AMAZING KIDS all of them including “D”. I truly love and miss you old man. You and grandpa and Jen are haunting the shop I know for sure, strange things have happened around here.

  35. hey gramps, well its no secret that everyone still misses you. its only been a month and grandma is back out on the open road, shes made the whole family proud with her courage and strength. my moms doing ok keepin her days busy with work and wedding plans, and when she hits the rough road cory tom and i are always there to pick her up. i know youre probably a professional dog walker by now with all of the dogs youve been reunited with, good thing u enjoy walking. i miss you and that will never change. so sit right there and have another beer in mexico…or wherever ur at

  36. Hi Dad, Just wanted to say Hi. Just missin’ you….as always. Went to Laughlin this weekend and memories are always so strong there…it’s one of the last places we got to hang out together. It’s a good memory and one I’m lucky to have…. Love ya, Cis

  37. Hi Fred, I just needed to let you know how much we all miss you! Mama doing ok and your Grandkids are doing so much to help Grandma.You would be so proud of all of them.So anyway I just wanted to let you know that your always in all of are heart’s and are mine’s We love and miss you.

  38. Hey Dad, Well, it’s the 10th….another month. I can’t believe it’s only been 2 months…it seems like forever since you’ve been gone and I miss you so much. So does mom. She’s having a hard time now…lots of things breaking down and it’s just a tough time for her. Give her a hug, I think she could really use it (me too!). We’re getting ready to deal with Thanksgiving and I’m not sure how we’ll get through it…oh I know we will, but it won’t be easy. We might have to change tradition some, so that it won’t be so hard. I don’t think it will help, not really, but just don’t know how else to get through it. I love you and I miss you. Cis

  39. Hi Dad: Well, we managed to make it through our first major holiday without you there. It was tough…everyone puts on a good face, but I know everyone was thinking the same thoughts and feeling the same loss. I miss you. But I made it…of course, you knew I would. There is definitely an empty space where you should be. Happy Thanksgiving. I love you, Cis

  40. Hey gramps, i just came on to say that i love you and we miss you. Thanksgiving was really hard without you there but you were there in our hearts. My dad carved the turkeys. It was hard not seeing you there doing it but we made it through. And gma did really good. We keep her busy and help her with whatever she needs. But you know her she still does stuff shes not supposed to do and never sits still. But thats gma for ya! Anyways you are always on our mind and christmas is coming up which is i think going to be the hardest. But we are a strong family with a lot of love and will get through it. Derrick lost 2 teeth so far. He looks so funny. Tooth fairy was very kind to him. Derrick and gma are closer than ever and im so thankful for that. hes young but i know he misses you. I miss you too!

  41. Hi Dad, Well, I tried to write last night, but the computer and rain don’t go together, so I kept getting bumped off. It was the 10th…3 months since you passed…3 months that have felt like a lifetime. I miss you so much. The holidays are going to be very difficult. Oh, you know us, we’ll get through it, we’ve got a great family…it’s just that nothing is the same without you there. Give Jennifer a big Birthday hug from me. I miss her too, but at least you are with her. I love you. Cis

  42. So much time has passed. Something as simple as keeping score for you and Carol on bowling league nights was always fun. Even then you were always mellow and level-headed. But the true measure of a man is the effect he has on his family and loved ones. It is so obvious reading these comments that your impact continued to extend beyond your immediate family to your grandchildren and friends. I hope you have found the peace you so richly deserve. For Carol, Michelle, Mark, and family I am deeply sorry for your loss!

  43. Hey there Fred Man Been thinkin an awefull lot about memories and things and wanted to stop by to say how deeply you are missed. Christmas was never complete without watching you open yet another package of monogramed hankies from Nikki. While shopping this year I stumbled across the display that she would normally choose ‘just the right one’s for her Grandpa Fred to open’. It was a simple memory and one I never though twice about…until now. I Love You~

  44. Hi Dad: Well, I’m an old married lady now. The wedding turned out way better than I expected…it was beautiful. You would have been proud. We toasted you and missed you (as always). I know you were there in our hearts, but it’s just not the same. Tom’s wearing your ring and I’m so honored by that. It’s very pretty and looks good on him. Mom did good. We are so grateful to her for making our wedding possible. She did it as much for you as for us. We’re hoping this year will be better than last year…the worst year of our lives. Happy New Year All my love Cis

  45. Hi Dad, Just wanted to say Hi. Mom’s comin home today and it always brings it back fresh that you aren’t coming with her. Just like September 10 all over again. We got her a dog for Christmas. She’s sooooo cute. We thought she might name her Fred so that when she did something wrong she could say “G!@@!@3s Dqou508-” Fred. But she named her Lacy, which is actually a better fit. She doesn’t look like a Fred. You’d like her. It took mom a while, but I think she’ll take to her really well. She was born about the time you were diagnosed…so maybe there really is a part of you in her. I love you and miss you Cix

  46. Hi Dad, Happy almost Valentine’s Day. I’ll be expecting the usual heart box of candy. We sent mom flowers today…think she was having a bad day. She has lots of them. Saw Susan today, hope you and Chris are havin a beer….Just too much loss. We miss you so much.

  47. Hi honey, just saw how to get on here, you know me and computers, just wish i could stop crying, and i know i have become a burden to the kids, mostly cis, but bless steve he is always there for me, you ripped my heart out when you left i have nothing left, i love the kids but i keep waiting for you to walk in the door, i have no one to go home and tell the daily news to, even though i talk to you a lot, i hope motor homing is the right thing for me to do, the kids are glad when i’m gone, see ya me

  48. Hey Dad, I can’t believe it 6 months since you died. It still feels like yesterday. I miss you. Grief counseling seems to help some…based on the people I’ve met, you probably have some really nice friends. Talking about all this is hard, but it seems to help, especially with others that have lost a parent. Knowing what to expect, sort of anyway, explains some things that are happening to me, emotions, feelings. Bottom line is, you should still be here. You are in my heart, that will never stop. I think you made it snow on mom. Good one(: At least we know you’re here with us. I love you Cis

  49. Hey Fred…Thinkin about you as always. When Carol is in town we have Friday date night. Chris, Joanne & I take her to dinner and a movie. Not long ago Carol had given Chris one of your jackets (which he doesn’t leave the house without) and when we got to the movie, Chris had reached into the pocket and pulled out an old movie ticket stubb from Christmas Day 2002. We kept the ‘find’ private but it was just another sign that you are still with us… Loving & Missing You Always…Fred-Man

  50. Hi Dad, I skipped group to celebrate St. Patty’s day with you…had to celebrate the Irish in us. As usual, you got a toast. You’re with us everywhere we go and everything we do. Love ya

  51. mar.30,2010 Hi, still waiting for you to come home, i keep your swing cleaned off for you ,I’m sure you have been working in the yard as easy as you bleed, there is blood all over the cement you cut yourself i’m sure, I feel so sorry for the kids they are trying to help but I need you, and now I may lose “D”, if tif moves there goes the rest of my heart, I have been looking for things to do and cis is helping, had the side of the house cut off so mark wouldn’t have nervous breakdown and it is easier now to park, I sure am learning a lot about what you did on the motorhome and it’s a lot of work doing my stuff and yours, but I am getting better, I slept in your bed the other night, derrick was snoring, it was big and lonely, I have to go because this makes me cry and I do a lot of that, I know you would be mad at me but you were my life, my friend, my bike buddy ,my lover, my doctor, what will I do now with 3 other surgeries coming up, I will listen to you preaching at me from above love ma

  52. Hey Dad, I don’t know if you had any idea how much you’d be missed….but it sure is alot. by everyone, but most expecially by Mom. She’s a mess. She tries to hide it, but she’s not very good at it. I don’t want to ever know how she feels because it must be the most profound sadness imaginable. Ddn’t think you would be the cause of that did you. I know you would never had had it this way if you could have prevented it, but here it is. Easter is Sunday, the family will be together. Even you’ll be there in our heart. God I wish you were here. Love Cis

  53. Missin The Fred Man Just dropping by to remind you how much you are loved and so-so terribly missed… Grams is on the road again…I believe that is where she is the most at peace. Watch over her and guide her in her travels. Keep her warm. “Wishing I could get one of your hugs…” Love you Fred

  54. Hi Dad, it’s me,nothing has changed my heart is so broken it will never heal, i feel so sorry for Cis, she keeps trying different things, we went to a new group last night, everyone seemed nice, been through the same thing, I just cry so easy and a lot, Heather is staying with me as you know, but she is either in bed or gone with friends, I keep forgetting I can’t go home with any news to tell you, because you aren’t there, it’s empty and cold, I prAy every day that Derrick won’t leave me, that will really do me in, I would help tiff in any way to keep him here, she’s stubborn, I LOVE YOU

  55. Hey Gramps, Just wanted to say hi even though I c u often in my thoughts. Try to take care of gma n my mom cuz it’s hard to see them in pain even though they don’t show it I love you

  56. Hi Dad, Just wanted to say hi. We’ve been to Laughlin the last few weekends and the memories there never seem to end. From the time I was just a little kid goin’ there with you and grandpa….to our last trip with you. I see you everywhere there. Such good memories. Thank you for those. I wish you could reach down and hug mom (and me too)….I don’t think she’ll ever learn to live without you, even though there is no choice and for that, my heart breaks for her. I don’t know how to help her. Well, we bowl tonight, so we’ll be toasting you as usual…we know your there with us and we love you.

  57. Hey Gramps, well long decision but I have decided that me n Bailey will be livin with grandma hope it will make her happy love you

  58. Hi Dad, I keep having such bad nightmares about you. Mostly when I’m in Bullhead, but sometimes at home too. I really miss you. Mom seems to be doing better, on the surface anyway. I know she’s still so torn up, but she’s trying and we can’t ask for more than that. Just wanted to say hey. Love ya Cis

  59. Hey there Fred~ You are still here for us…I can feel it. Not a day goes by without feeling your guidence around us! We will miss having you with us in person(we always do)today… Just wanted you to know! I love you Happy Fathers Day

  60. Hi Dad, Happy Father’s Day. It’s funny, I don’t think you’ve been home for a Father’s day in a few years and that was ok….this isn’t. We’re at the condo and I’ve been thinking about you all day (nothing unusual). One of the best Father’s Day was actually up here…you, Henk, the kids, mom, Ronnie, and everyone else if I remember correctly. I bought you and Henk scull caps and got the greatest picture of you and him huggin at the lake. I loved that picture. Of course, when I bought the kids a new computer and downloaded the pictures, the computer froze and I lost that picture along with all the rest. I’ll never forget that day or that picture though, they were very special for me. My 2 dads together on Father’s day. I wish you were here for this one…as always, we’ll toast you…miss you…and always remember you with smiles. Tom says Hi and Happy Father’s Day to you too. He misses you alot too. I love you Cis

  61. Hi Dad, Just wanted you to know I was thinking about you. Mom’s doin ok from the knee surgery, but misses you more than you could know. I love you…. Good night(:

  62. Hi Fred, Well as you know Nikki is getting married this Sunday. I sure wish you could be there to help me walk her down the aisle. But we’ll all have in our heart’s. I sure miss you alot my heart breaks still everyday. You where more like my DAD then you know.With all my heart and love I MISS You. And i know that Nikki does Also.Everybody does from your kid’s, grandkid’s, Carol,and all your friend’s WE LOVE YOU!!!!

  63. Hi Dad, Today’s my birthday, but you probably know that(: I know you would have called if you could. Last year on my birthday, I had a very nice message from you congratulating Tom & I on our engagement and the condo…..then you got sick. Pretty f’d up how things turn out. I’d gladly give up all things to have you here. Nikki got married Sunday…you were there with us…No, really you were. I took my forever candle so you could be with us, in body as well as spirit. Anyway, missing you as always. You will be there with us tonight celebrating my birthday…. I love you, Cis

  64. Hi Honey, it’s me, I don’t read to often because it so makes me cry, and I know you would be mad at me, had my knee done, it really hurts even now five weeks later, but did go to laughlin this weekend, boy did I miss you, but had a good time with Tom’s parents and Cis and Tom, have a meeting tonight, they help, but not enough, I keep waiting for you to come back, I guess beacuse you really didn’t have a long illness, but I am so glad, I haven’t seen a man in this world that could ever equal you, but I do think your brother is a runner up, your mom did a good job, there are no amount of words to tell you how hard it is without you, nothing works, the kids try to help but they have their lives, I know cis is having a hard time yet, the m/h is so lonely, and friends are kind of drifting away since i am not a couple anymore, breaks my heart, I try not to be in the way, but the house is so big and empty, Nae is there and tif and D until they move to O.C. which is killing me, D has been holding me together now he won’t be there, please give me a sign you are here, Mark sees you all the time in the shop, I can’t find anything to help me, Chris and Denise have been so good to me, love them all, and Nikki’s wedding was beautiful, but you know that don’t you, hope your watch Jen for us. Love, Ma

  65. Hi Dad, Well…one year ago today, I got the worst news of my life…you had terminal cancer and you had 1-2 years to live. Someone lied, we got one fuckin month. To this day, I can’t tell you how much that sucks. I miss you so much, you should be here. You have no idea how hard it is to invite others of your age group (those we love) an you are not there. It’s so hard. I love you, I miss you…. Cis

  66. Hi Honey, how are you doing, well its almost a year and nothing is better, I keep waiting for you to walk in the door, Derrick will be leaving me next week, then I don’t know what I’ll do, he’s far away, I will never get to take him to school anymore and miss so much of his growing up tiffany doesn’t understand, I know he needed better, but I could have helped. I am so lost without you I don’t fit anywhere, the yards not pretty anymore,and I guess I just don’t care because you aren’t here and “D” leaving me, my knee is sort of healing, I don’t have you to help me with the therapy and the back is worse, sorry I sound so down, but I am, you were my life and my world, even going to laughlin, I look around for you, I have a meeting tonight, it helps a little because they understand, we have all been through the same thing, shops doing awful, but you know that, we are doing our best. got to go love you forever, but you know that to.

  67. Hi, Honey I guess I will be in laughlin with cis and tom and maybe steve, I need someone to ride with me to get to reno,God I miss you, why did you go, everything is so hard, even just going to bed,going anywhere, doing anything, I can’t make your other wife know how much I need her, friday afternoons and a lot of the weekends are so lonely. I have never watched so much tv. The yard is a mess, the garage is a mess, maybe when my knee and back is better I can clean it up. You must know I lost my “D”, he moved, the kids said 30 minutes, they are crazy. Cis is helping me get skype so I can see him, Marcia, it’s like a camera on the computer, I really don’t care much about anything at all, the only days that are good is monday and tuesday, I have the meeting and the kids bowl the rest of the time I am trying to find things to do to keep from crying,nothing matters anymore. I guess you have two more friends with you, storming norman ronkanein had a heart attack, and spook killed himself last week, because they took his wife to a place, her alsheimer was so bad, look for them they will be there, hope your clouds are big enough, steve does my repairs,he’s always there when I need him, a little slow. I have thought about moving, I love my house but I am so lonely. I am going to a torrance womens club meeting tomorrow to see if I like it, to keep busy, sat. will be the first time to drive m/h. Have to go now HAPPY BIRTHDAY,have a couple of beers and get my tidal wave ready to toast, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH LOVE, ME

  68. i guess ill start here haha many ppl are hurting cuz they have realized that close to a year has passed since you moved on. well i hope you can pull them through. There hasnt been a day go by that i havent though of you, but there also hasnt been a second that goes by that i havent cherished the times we had and the memories i will forever keep. The only thing i really learned over the passed year is that you live within all of us and we keep your legacy living on. you have taught me that no matter how hard life gets i can live on and remember the best of times. im happy for granny cuz she is getting back to what yall loved which was the motorhome. my mom well she still a pain in my ass just like she was to you. i guess well never fix that, yet we have to deal with it. well thats all for now just remember that well all love you and ill be cheersing a beer monday although i have work happy birthday, and friday well ima cheers a whole bunch to you i love you

  69. Well Happy Birthday Fred. I can’t tell how MUCH Everone MISSES you. were all still hurting inside because your not here . But i know that your here in Sprit as you know we all talk to you often. Like everyday Ha Ha. I love and miss you so very much but that’s the way it is. better go for now . HAPPY BIRTHDAY

  70. Happy Birthday Dad! You’d be 72 today. That used to seem so old, now is seems just around the corner. We’re going to celebrate your birthday all day, so I expect you to be here with us. I love you and miss you so much. So much has happened in the past year, most of it sucked! We just keep hangin in and always thinkin about you….with a smile. I love you Cis

  71. Hey dad Happy B’day!! I’d much rather be partying with you but I know Jen and the grandparents are taking good care of you. It’s hard to believe it has been a year this week. Everyone is still missing the hell out of you. I know your still here because you just kicked the wall behind our desk. STOP IT!!

  72. Well it’s a year today since you left us. Not a day I want to celebrate but just remember. A memory I wish that was not real but reality sucks. At least I know your not in pain. Give Jen a hug for me.

  73. Well grandpa it has been a year since you have been gone and we all still miss you like crazy. You were the best grandpa to us and I think you for that. Life has been hard but its going ok right now. Derrick and I have moved to Anaheim and we love it there. We are finally in a good area and hes in a great school and is doing good. I know its hard for grandma but we will still see her and she will still see derrick grow. Shes traveling right now which is good for her. Tonight i will definately be cheersing to you drinking a coors light (even though i think they are nasty). I love you forever and will miss you always! Love Tiff and Derrick!

  74. Hi Gramps, Well its been a year already and still miss you as much as the day you left us. Thanks for being you and sharing your life with me as long as you did. I am trying to be there for gma as much as I can. Its hard sometimes cause I dont always know what to do except just let her get it out and cry. I am really glad gma decided to join this womens club and hope she enjoys it. And dont worry I give gma plenty of things to nag at me about! She loves the clothes on my floor in my room! haha I like to keep her on her toes! Miss you and love you so much! Nae

  75. Hi there Fred~man~ I can’t believe what a long year this has been and other times it feels like it was just yesterday. I miss hugging your neck when I would see you. Grama and Steve are on the road right now, I think that they are in Reno today…Watch over them and see them home safely~ I feel your presents even though you aren’t here in person. Miss you so much ~Love to you and Jen~

  76. Hey Dad: I took you jetskiing with me today(: Kinda bittersweet, tons of memories….all wonderful. I’m going to, or try to, Celebrate Your Life, not mourn your death. It’s just not easy. I wonder why it hurts so much to loose someone you love, is it really worth loving someone? But I guess the alternative would hurt even more….not to know how to love anyone…not to ever worry about anyone. Seems strange, but it might be worth trying sometime. I worry ten times more about the kids than I used to. And mom too. She’s such a mess, but trying….I just truly don’t ever want to know what she’s going through. Sounds selfish…sorry. But I’m here for her. I’m actually waiting for you to come home from vacation….I know mom is too. But you’ve been gone for a year now, and it’s time for you to come home. I miss you so much…I love you and Celebrating your Life sucks, but you deserve better than mourning all the time. Such a good man…you deserve celebrations! Forever in my heart…I miss your smile. I love you, Cis

  77. A few more things…..reach down and hug mom…she’s had a really rough time (which is why she’s not signing today, no internet available) with the motorhome. Are you haunting her? Seems like it, nothing but problems with it, so much frustration. Steve’s with her, thankfully. Just reach down and hug them and everyone else for that matter….we all need it, desperately. Again, your are dearly missed and loved.

  78. Hi Dad, lot going on with the M/H costing a fortune, and finally got a hold of that lady I bought the hutch from, wish you were here to take care of this stuff, Steve has been really good about helping, but I know you know that since you are watching all of us, I miss you so much, I keep thinking the years will hurry up and I can be with you, I have so much time alone it really hurts to sit and watch tv. I am trying to get involved but it takes time, Mark never comes over and cis is gone a lot, Heather is in bed or gone. My knee hurts a lot still, and my back, going to dr. today. just so lonely, I sit in your chair and wonder why I’m here. Wish you would talk to me, I know you know about Cecil, hope he’s ok. Have to go love ya, Ma 9-22-10

  79. Hi dad, sorry I forgot to wish you happy birthday, I know you hate them, but the whole world took off to celebrate your B/D. I didn’t have access to a computer, Cis had a housefull that night, but H/B, love ya

  80. Well Gramps, I sat all night with grandma and she is so much fun when she gambles. I now understand why you two left to places that y’all can gamble or at least her. I don’t think I have ever won money but ever since you started lookin over me I win although I would give all that up to c u again. Well I love you and take care of ma n gma. please tell brandy I haven’t forgot about her especially cuz we have a dog that acts so much like her. I love you always

  81. Hi Dad…. Haven’t written in awhile…but that doesn’t mean I don’t think about you every day. We took you to the condo with us…thought you might enjoy it since it was over 100 most of the time, especially inside the condo. It felt good to have you there. I miss you so much. Mom’s got her ups and downs, of course. She tries to keep busy,we try to keep her busy, but life does go on and we all have our lives and work and we can only get together so often. We try to get her to Laughlin whenever we go…just keep her winning so she can afford to go(: A big hug to you. I love you, Cis

  82. Hi Dad…Happy Thanksgiving. I can’t believe it’s the second one without you…this year flew by. Still waitin for you to come home from vacation. They say time heals all…well, that’s not true. You just learn how to deal with things differently. I also hear, time doesn’t heal, it’s what you do with that time that makes the difference. That I believe. Giving back in ways that matter, makes everything come into perpective. Why?….not really sure, except that no matter what we might be going through, there’s someone out there going through something way worse. And I believe that. So, while I miss you more now that I did a year ago, I try to give back and know that it would make you proud. And it makes me feel good. I miss you and love you. Tonight when the boys get here, we’ll toast you as usual…know that you are always with us, no matter what. Cis

  83. Hi Dad: Merry Christmas. I can’t believe it’s already our 2nd Christmas without you. So much goes on and goes by, so quickly its unreal. Mom did good this year, she didn’t go so crazy with too many gifts, etc. It was a nice day. We had our first Christmas Eve with Susan, Aunt Joye & Uncle MIke, since you and Chris (Young) died…all so very strange. I wonder why everyone else is here but you….I don’t get it. I love you dad. So tired…gotta go…I’ll write again soon. I love you and miss you so much. Cis

  84. Hi Dad, Well, Happy New Year(: Tom & I decided to take a Honeymoon this year….last year, we weren’t in the mood….just too close to losing you. We drove up the coast and how beautiful it is. I remember going as a kid and young adult, but I think I appreciate it so much more now. Carmel Highlands…incredible. We went to go meet Clint Eastwood…I think he would be just like you…but unfortunately, we didn’t get the chance, imagine that. I had a dream about you….it was good. I think you were just letting me know ‘it was alright’ and you are alright. Thank you. I love you and miss you…but you are with me always.

  85. Hi Honey, things are not going well, I am so lonely, I am trying to keep busy, but nothing seems to work. I want to wish you a happy valentine’s, I miss your card and candy and smiling face. Please help us down here, we need it, we are in such trouble and don’t know what to do. Finally went camping and nothing broke, but the motorhome is way to big now without you, and the house is to. Please send me a sign as what we can do to go on. I am sorry to sound so depressing but I love you and miss you and so miss Derrick, hardly ever see him, hope you are taking care of everyone up there, I know you are. love you, ma

  86. Hey Dad, Just wanted to say Happy Valentines Day. I’m expecting my box of candy(: I miss you so much….send a hug down for all of us…especially Mom, she really needs it. Love Cis

  87. Hi Dad: Seems you might have a lot of new people up there with you after this terrible event in Japan. My heart breaks for their loss, because even though we didn’t suffer their experience, we had our own, and lost you, so I understand. It’s St. Patty’s day, so we’ll be sharing a beer with you later tonight (not that we don’t share a beer way more often that that, but this is our Irish Day:) So, be ready! As always, I miss you so much. You are thought of every single day, many times over and I just wish you were here. Love Cis

  88. hi, crappy weekend again, and monday.Wish you would get here so we could hit the road. I think I am going to try to find a singles camping group that goes on trips. It is sad when everyone goes and I really can’t because I don’t ever want to be a burden, I am allready Isteves here now working on M/H and was here yesterday, but you know all this. I am now a red hatter, but haven’t found a group yet. I miss you so much, sunday’s are so lonely and every other day also, sorry I am complaining but I so miss you. Have to go now, have a meeting tonight. love you forever

  89. Hi Dad, sure am missing you. I am trying so hard to make friends and do things, but it is slow going, people have their friends already, and the married couples seem to go there own way, Cis has very little parience with me, I do a lot and take care of house and m/h and shop, I don’t feel old, just my body sucks, you know whats going on, you see everything don’t you. Take care of jen and derricks puppy bisquit,my life without you is nothing, nothing matters, sorry don’t mean to sound down, but’s it’s so hard just wanting to get each day overwith, and not having Derrick really hurts, he will be seven tomorrow. Have to go, I love you forever.

  90. Hi,it’s me, happy birthday, things suck right now,things aren’t good with Cis and me, I feel so uneasy, and Mark is messing things up for everyone, poor nae cry’s a lot, and tif is very hard hearted, they are in so much pain, so am I, I so hurt for everyone, and of course my body won’t heal, I just wish you were here to help me get wehank God for your freind Walt, he is working on the house nobody has time for my repairs, I was thinking of you today, our plumming is plugged up, what’s new, I don’t really ask how you are because I know you and Jen are good now. I love you so much and everyday I think of you, but I know your ok, I do wish you would come and visit me. Have to go now, I love you. MA

  91. Happy Birthday Dad. I know I haven’t been here in awhile, but I talk to you everyday. You’re even here with us now and you love it, it’s hot! So, happy birthday, I miss you so much. Love, Cis

  92. Hi Dad, Happy Anniversary. At least I think it’s today, remember I wasn’t there, so always had a hard time remembering the exact date. Mom’s in Italy celebrating and I hope you’re with her. As always, I miss you every day. I talk to you everyday….sometimes I even cuss you out for not being here, but I’m sure you’re laughing at me, or at least smiling, when I do it(: I love you, Cis

  93. Hi, Honey, the holidays are here again as you know and things are not good , everyone has gone on with their lives but I can’t, I have such and empty hole without you, and I don’t even get to see Derrick, Tif’s to busy for me, I’m glad she has a boyfriend but I miss “D” so much, Tif and Heather are so hard on me, I love all of them so much, and just in case you didn’t notice, I’m sure you have Cory graduates college thursday, I don’t think Chris ever will but he loves his job, and it’s a nice job. Please be there in spirit to help thru the holidays, the shop is not good, Mark and Steve are not good, how’s Jen doing, give her a love for me, I know you guys are in a good place. Your good friend Walt has been good for me, he’s fixing things you were supposed to fix,see if you have any powers up there to fix the shop, it’s draining me. I LOVE YOU and will try to write more often. love, ma dec.12,2011

  94. Hi Honey, well it seems things are not going to get better here at the shop, I wiah you were here to help the boys, and I know they would like that also, my nod. on lung I think is ok, so I will be here for a while, Hi Jen, love you take care of gramps, Dad you always had the right answer, we need your wisdom, Mark is signed up to quit drinking, I thought he might join you the way he was going, I hope not, Tif is happy with new guy Greg, real nice guy, but you know all this I am sure. Derrick is growing like a weed, he is a good boy, tif’s doing a good job. I wish someday you could me a sign you are around, the boys see you all the time out in the shop. I am stopping the meetings, I don’t think they help me anymore even though my friend Bobbie said I help other people, so I may go once in a while, Walt’s been keeping the house in one piece, and steve does the m/h, cis and tom’s condo is nice, but I don’t fit in their life, guess I don’t fit anywhere without you, it’s so lonely everyday, I need to find more to do if I could get rid of back and knee pain. Gotta go and do some work, go camping with me thios weekend, I need you. LOVE YOU SO MUCH, MA

  95. Hi, just wanted to say HI, wish I had good news but I don’t except Cory and Laura are getting engaged for real. I really need your input, I think I need to move and sell M/H for smaller one, how do I give up our beautiful home with great memories and the M/h, I wish you would give me a sign, I am so lonely I hate my life without you, nothing is fun, just trying to keep busy so I don’t hurt so bad. If you have any pull up there please try to help Mark, he so needs it. I LOVE YOU,see ya

  96. Hi, it’s me, just saying hi and I love you, Happy Fathers day, don’t have to say much, you see it all, nothing is better, I so need you, the lonliness is unbearable, I want to be with you, I so wish this was my 92 birthday then I could join you soon, I am sorry but have no wants in life but you, nothing matters in this life. got to go. Love You,

  97. Hi, it’s me again, just wanted to say Hi, not doing much, summer is awful, no campouts, everything else you know, going to try therapy again, but I don’t think that is the answer, just tired of hurting. Talk to you later, love you so much, waiting for you.

  98. Hi, it’s me, not much going on, still in great pain, and trying to keep things going, going to laughlin next week, wish steve could go, he is always good company, but no money, when are you coming back, I so miss you, we still had so much to do, and I know you could help me with my knee and back, you were magic, I love you so, please come home and guide me to you, I don’t know what to do with the house, it’s so so lonely and big without you. I love you.

  99. Hi, Dad, miss you, nothing new as you know, just wanted to say I love you and miss you, want so much to be with you, I hate this life. love me

  100. hey gramps…i know it’s been a while but i just dropped by to wish you a happy birthday! Although time has continued to fly, the memories of you will never die!!!Always missed but never forgotten…enjoy 74 because when the next one comes around…you’re going to be old! love you!

  101. Hi Honey, well happy birthday, same old **** different day, life is not good, wish you were here to help, things are not good with kids, and I blame me, you were a good Dad. Someday I will join you and hope to have peace I have none now, people should die as a couple. I love you so much.

  102. Hi, hate counting the years but it is what it is, got a lot of facebooks today, 3 years is forever, I wish you would come and get me, we could motorhome up there or somewhere, will have dinner with some of the kids tonight, then I will go camping tomorrow, so wish you were here, I always feel so lost doing the M/H, and it’s so big without you. Have a beer and throw me a kiss. Love you much, Ma

  103. Hey grandpa…just want to say I miss you! Things are going pretty good though. I know it was hard on grandma but moving to orange county was probably the best decision ive done (other than having derrick). It was good to get away from everything and get Derrick in a much better school. He is doing so good. You would be so proud of him! Watching him grow and seeing how much of a good boy he is makes me so proud and makes me feel like a really good mom. I finally met a really good guy and hes good to the both of us. Gma seems to be doing a little better but still not happy like she should be. My dad is doing really good though. He stopped drinking a few months ago and is living with other sober people. Im really proud of him and glad to have him back in our lives. Well i wish you were still here to watch us keep growing. Miss you and love you!

  104. Hi Honey, wanted to say Hi, have to cook the bird again and all the family will get together which is good, we will toast myou, but you are supposed to be there, things are not any easier, I want to be with you, I love you so much, nobody will ever have the memories I have with you, I know you will have a turkey leg and a beer.
    Love, Ma 11-20-12

  105. Hi honey, it’s me again, just wanted to say Hi, and have you take Jen to dinner for her birthday today, we so miss you both, take care and love you.

    Love Ma, and GMA

  106. Dec 17, 2013 Hi Honey it’s me who else, hope you took Jen to dinner for her b/d, sure miss you guys, trying to keep busy but nothing really works, I so miss all the kids but they are to busy for me. I have found things to do but it is so lonely, have fun last night with the group, you know that you can see everything from above, am so afraid for Chris, if he comes your way hold him tight, I don’t pray, but I am for him. Have to go, I love you forever,
    Love Ma

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